My God I swear my girls are going to have me in an early grave, double trouble is certainly an appropriate name at the minute. We are 2 weeks off their 2nd birthday and the temper tantrums and stroppiness has gotten a million times worse! What is really taking its toll on me is the way they can be so loving to me and each other one minute and the next izzy will have lizzy in a headlock and pulling her hair out! Seriously I'm thinking of giving them to wwe wrestling!

Well, as the title says, we are no longer pregnant - we had another missed miscarriage which was a little different than last time. We went for the early scan at 8 weeks to be told there was a 6 week old fetus and no heartbeat, but it could still be too early. So we phoned EPU the next day who told us to go in but wouldn't scan again and set us a date for a week later.

They then told us the baby had shrunk to 5 weeks and there was still no heartbeat but to rescan in a week to be sure - so there was yet another week from hell.

Well im still here just plodding along at CD18! I was hoping to have a break from all things TTC but what with this diet im following its hard to forget! I also had EWCM for the first time in ages, so that was extremely exciting and me and the Hubby got down to some serious bding at the weekend! :wacko: The only problem is I have no idea about my cycles anymore as they are completely up the creek so am going to wait until at least CD50 before I let myself think about it.

Been a while since i last blogged, i've been quite busy with work and the twins and basically keeping it all together! have to say this week is going to be interesting hubby is on guard and working nights so doing 7pm til 7am so i've got to try and keep the twins either out the house or as quiet as possible all day and then do the bedtime routine solo! friday and saturday weren't t bad as we went to stay at my mum's but sunday was a nightmare we got home at 4pm and the girls couldn't be quiet so poor hubby ended up getting up early.

After registering with the midwife, she rang me and told me she would refer me to the recurring miscarriage consultant who will probably want to see me, and to take 75mg aspirin every day to be on the safe side.

I first found out I was pregnant in September 2008, just after my August wedding. It was the perfect honeymoon baby, except it didn’t feel right. I had just had my period and had started to pee on some OPK’s to check for my fertile time but they kept coming back positive from when I started on CD9, it just wasn’t normal. So I took a pregnancy test and got a beautiful BFP!

And all is well :D

And I hope it stays that way!!

Been getting waves of sickness, but it is not as bad as last time so that is worrying in itself - on the other hand I have bloated to the size of a house so it could just be my body getting used to the hormones!!

I registered with the midwife on Friday so hopefully she will phone next week and I will get my booking in appt. :D I am going to wait and see if she offers an early scan or not, if she does I will have one, if she doesn't I will wait :)

We are 54 days into our chinese adventure and quite a while since i wrote on here.....

We are in our house and customs have given us our stuff so we now have a home over here instead of living in the hotel. We were in the hotel for 6 weeks and 2 days and i think i put on about 2 stone in weight with all the great food available :wacko:

Well our last IUI didnt work :cry: AF arrived today in all her heavy painful glory |( so it looks like it will be IVF for us now, I spoke to the clinic on Thursday and we are now going to be referred to our new clinic for the IVF, it looks like it will be a lot quicker than what we expected so thats good news, and also the new clinic should be able to do the test for us to see why the MCs happened last year, we will be paying for these test privately as i dont want to go through the IVF to have another MC.

We got our bfp on Saturday :)

So I am now 4+4 going from ov, and I am staring to get a few pre-af style cramps which are knocking my confidence somewhat! It always feels like my cervix is opening and that is what it feels like. I had it in the few days before I started bleeding last time, so I am not feeling very confident right now but I am okay with it. Whilst I am not bleeding there is hope all is okay!!

So I hope ot be able to update with midwife appts and scans soon :)

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